Out Of Love?
How are you doing? I have been reading your writings for over a month and I must admit some of them are very touching. But there is one in particular that really touched my heart.(Your King or Queen) So much so that it left me crying. I feel so guilty and ashamed, because when I was married I had an affair. What led me to cheating on my husband was his lack of attention that he gave me. I am the type of woman that loves and craves affection. When we first got married my husband was very attentive. He was romantic, loving and would always call me just to say that he loved me. We were so much in love, that I thought that we would be married forever. But one day after I went shopping my husband and I had a serious argument. This argument wasn't about an affair, but was about money. You see I have a serious problem, I love to spend money and shop. I kind of went over board with my shopping, so much that when my husband went to pay a couple of bills that the checks started to bounce. Every since that happen my husband and I love for each other started to fade. It was so bad that we didn't speak to each other for months and after sometime went by we stopped having sex.
One day after work, the girls and I went out on the town then went clubbing. There I met a man who was in the same position as I was. He was married, his marriage was in trouble and our situations were very similar. I was so drawn to him because cute, we also had so much in common and besides that I was horny as hell! Shortly after seeing him that day, we had an affair and I thought to myself that I could love this man. But who was I fooling? This man wasn't going to leave his wife for me and I myself was also married, I sure in hell wasn't going to leave my husband. Anyway, some how unknown to me, my husband found out that I was cheating.(That's because he followed me, that dirty dog!) One day after work, I said to myself that I am going to do what ever it takes to save my marriage. I ended it with my friend and then went home told my husband that I wanted to talk about saving our marriage. But before I could start talking, he said that he didn't love me anymore and wanted a divorce! I was so hurt because, I know what I did was wrong. He was a good man Chuck and I know in my heart God sent him to me. I know I messed up really bad, I know you may not believe, but I am really sorry. The question I have for you, is what does a girl do, when her man falls out of love? How do I get him back or make him understand, that if he gives me another chance that I won't ever cheat or hurt him again? Please help!